I'm a mess...

Posted on: Tuesday, February 10, 2015

right now.

Between trying to tidy, lose weight, managing finances, handling my jay-oh-bee and trying to keep my perfectionist tendencies in check, well... let me just say, things have not exactly gone the way I've planned.

Oh and have I mentioned that I'll be flying to my home country for my grandma's 100th birthday celebration in less than 3 weeks?

Bish, whet?

Right. So I am what some you may call, frazzled at the moment.

In any case, I've decided to pare down, a lot. I feel like I've changed SO much since I began this blogging thing. Back when I was a starry eyed youngster I tried to do way too much and now I know this is impossible.

So instead of trying to keep up with 150 blogging feeds, I've unsubscribed from nearly 100 of them that I no longer read and have kept about the 50 ones that I still enjoy reading. It felt so good to do this.

I've also decided to move permanently back to Blogger this summer. I just don't post here enough to justify the costs. So I'm off to figure out how the heck to move all of this content. Wish me luck.

ps. I feel like I'm the only person who ends up moving back to blogger from Squarespace. I'm such a weird person.

you spin me round

Posted on: Sunday, January 18, 2015

I was watching this video when he interrupted me. I paused it for a few minutes as he chattered on about a recipe he found in one of my old weight watchers cookbooks that we had just re-discovered. I stared at him and thought, "I should really give him my full attention," but as is my habit when I am trying do many things at once I probably only really gave him 70% of my attention. I promised myself to do better next time.

We're on a weight loss journey, you see. We did a trial run last week and it was hard. Even at this early stage I can't help but deeply reflect on things. He would say I was over-analyzing, and he'd be right but hey, it's how I roll.

In that brief respite between pausing the video and before he started reading off recipe names, I found myself staring at a blog post of a blogger who I really admire. And I as I stared a the content and design I realized that I really needed to stop trying to emulate others. It's rather been like trying to fit a circle into a square when it's pretty obvious I'm not a square.

I think I got it now though. Let's hope I don't relapse.

spin like this

Posted on: Friday, January 16, 2015

So... holy cow... I logged onto FB and saw that my brother-in-law posted the above video and I was mesmerized. This is totally my kind of spin class! After reading the comments, it seems that the trainer (who is so freaking awesome btw) is Keith Thompson of KTX Fitness in Atlanta. 

Umm... ATL is like 4 hours away from here. I'm SO going to take his class one day. In Atlanta. OMGOSH. 


Posted on: Wednesday, January 14, 2015

I'm really having a difficult time honing my focus. I feel as if I am being pulled in different directions. It's hard to pick just one thing to focus on. I'm thinking that maybe this is a sign for me to try and re-align my priorities.

Here are just a few things I'd like to achieve in 2015:
-start my weight loss journey and be present through it.
-grow my faith.
-nurture my relationships.
-figure out where the heck I want to do my blogging at.
-blog more - I have so many ideas. SO many. From beauty, to faith, to inspiration, to organization, and fashion. The funny thing is, when I finally get around to just sitting in front of the computer with the time to write about all of this, my mind goes blank. And then I give up and not do anything. Not sure where I go wrong. Maybe I'm afraid to do the work?

Sigh. First world problems. All of it. I know. I should be grateful for all of the blessings I have in my life. I know I should. I'm trying to muster up some genuine gratitude for it all but I find myself just shell shocked and tired. Of what I don't know.

Or I could just be PMSing.


Posted on: Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015, we made it.

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